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Friday, May 30, 2025

All the Questions

All the Questions

Midtown New York
People outside the library 
My mother worked 
At the library
Probably Flushing Meadows
But who knows

My parents are visualized
Sitting on the steps between
The lions silent unmoving
To the roar of traffic
Did Leo 1 beep?
Ah, just a horn

During the war conversation 
About their work
About their fears
I never asked the many questions
I could have asked
While they lived

My children are silent
Without the dialog
I ask them of their lives
Their children and growth
Old like me they'll want to know
All the answers I never heard

Barry G. Wick

Wednesday, May 14, 2025

The Deflating Balloon

The Deflating Balloon

There was a pressure
As I gradually put my lips
To the elastic nozzle
Inhaling precious atoms
To fill this old balloon
I held it's contents in
Until I could no longer
Tolerate my memories
Of how I filled it
Day after day
Hour after hour
Being cajoled by family
To fill the balloon
At every special event
Then every day after day

Tired of the pain of pressure
I let go and watched it
Zoom about the rooms
Deflating in a flight of fear
How will it look in the mirror
As the wrinkles appear

It's not a diet
It's eating less more and more
I have no one to please
Making their meals
I'd lived to eat
Now I die to feel better
To be me in my deflated body

Barry G. Wick

Friday, May 2, 2025

Kodokushi

Kodokushi
[Lonely death in Japanese.  Many older Japanese die alone in their homes and aren't found until days or weeks.]

The last day I see my face
What thoughts will be in mind?
How grateful I was to be alive?
How sad I am I hurt so many?
How shamed I feel for actions
I did not stop?

These and more 
My children and grandchildren
The little I could do for them
The list of failures that plague me
Over and over and over.

There will be no next life
That so many believe.
I haunt myself
I am my own ghost
Staring in the mirror
Ready to disappear
Nothing remembered
No more pain

Sagging skin fading away
To songs I cannot play
Or sounds of my own heart
That pumps the day through me
Hours go up in smoke
With my mind ablaze
Turning to its last dreams


Barry G. Wick