Ungrateful Little Shit: A Prayer

Ungrateful Little Shit: A Prayer

Oh mighty universe to whom I pray

Upon my birth I had not learned

There would be no memory of me

Since discovery that I've always

Been ungrateful until recently

Not all to whom I should be grateful

Will know how much I regret

The ingratitude that greeted them

Upon first contact with me

So to my children and their mother

I apologize for my gigantic shithood

More could be written to assuage

The guilt I've felt for years

Yet this will have to suffice

I am grateful that we've met

And your gifts to me are beyond

My ability to repay your kindness to me

And the suffering you have endured

My parents were generous and true

To the point I'm uncertain I never thanked

There was food clothing shelter 

Presents travel memories education

Hopes dreams thoughtfulness

And all the trappings I'm certain

I never fully gave to my own children

That which they should hold a grievance

For their father their entire better lives

For my lifetime friends I can never say

How grateful I am for their holding me

When they all knew how weak and useless

I always was from before grade school

To the years I finally retired to be myself

I'm not certain why I became this ungrateful

But now that I've realized the depths

Of my failures to support your lives it's all

I can do to give thanks to your fulfilled selves

And finally to myself I expressed gratitude

For waking up from a wasted life to do

The proper thing by being far away from all

To no longer submit this weak being

To all the glories and amazing people

Who are so much better than I am

Though now I have risen one tiny notch

From the bottom where I failed to share

Thank you one and all for this awakening

Barry G. Wick